I DON'T TRUST MYSELF WITH LOVING YOU NO MORE

© Breeze Vincinz

I don’t trust myself with loving you no more
There seems to be an agenda shift somewhere at the core

You don’t hold true anything that I seem to adore
I don’t trust myself with loving you no more

There’s been something wrong in the way that I think
There is blood in this water that I drink

I have mistaken your disregard for love and asked for more
I don’t trust myself with loving you no more

There was amiability in my hopes for you
Friends told me it was a waste of time to do

Told me women should never love so much that it knocks you to the floor
I don’t trust myself with loving you no more

And this is not what you think; it’s not a martyr’s plea
I am in need of closure, not sympathy

Or the excuses I tell myself that you are not who you are
I don’t trust myself with loving you no more

I could be the hopeless romantic
With skin strong enough to take the lies

Or maybe the elegantly sad girl
With glass tears glued below her eyes

I could be the beautifully flawed woman fucking to find her kindred
or maybe I’m delusional and too scared to admit my impenetrable heart has bended

There has been a paradigm shift I imagine in the stars
It’s been making all the shit you do reflect exactly who you are

And I am not blameless; you only get in because I open the door
That’ll never happen again, I don’t trust myself with loving you no more

And at the end of the day I will still trust myself to love
I will trust in music, I will trust in family, I will trust in the light above

I trust myself to friend rich and attitude poor
But I don’t trust myself with loving you no more